Okay, results turned out to be rather expected, though a bit lower. It is actually a big drop. Perhaps it's because I'm prepared that I'm not feeling so disappointed now. Once again, it's all due to my own laziness, and I only have myself to blame. Alright alright, I'm not depressed or anything, I'm just angry at the lazy me. And I'm not sure if I will really improve on that, though I'll hope to. I've decided, for the next two months I'll play hard. As hard as possible. Till I'm sick of it. So by next semester I'll be ready to concentrate on studying. Bless me.
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006My second day of relief teaching. Surprisingly I can hang on till 3 p.m before I left the school despite having only 4 hours of sleep. I guess the 3-hour long nap that I took yesterday was sufficient. Even though I couldn't fall asleep soon enough last night.
So far things are okay I guess. I am the type of person who doesn't attach myself to something that I know won't last. I'm just relieving for a few days. And seriously, I don't really give a damn about the naughty students. I feel that it is not worth my time and effort. It's their future they're playing with, not mine.
Some students are simply horrible. What make them behave like that, I really wonder. Don't teacher receive their due respect in classes anymore? Who was the person responsible for showing them all the bad attitude? Do they learn these from TV? Or is it already in their nature?
I have so many mean things that I want to say to those kids. Like this gay-guy in some class who answered me that he is in school to save face when I asked him what he is in school for if he doesn't want to do his work, I wanted to retort with a "oh, whose face you're saving? you're an embarrassment right at this moment" But well, I didn't. Actually they are not exactly kids anymore. So I couldn't help answering back sometimes. But since I am acting as a teacher, I try to keep my tongue in cheek. I am so grateful that my wish is not to become a teacher. I used to play teacher-student roles when I was young, and at one point I kinda like the idea of being a teacher. Oh well, the kids nowadays.
Teachers should be given more authority. They should be allowed to give physical punishments. I strongly believe in that and that was how I grew up in. Sadly, there are some teachers who go overboard, and there are some who misuse their authorities. So teachers are just powerless now. And I think this has given students the chance to misbehave. Of course, the parents are to be blamed as well. Some overprotective ones are too sensitive, while some are simply ridicuolous. And some, have so shame.
Some says the students are young, yet they are old enough to talk back. But some students are really nice, and it makes me want to be involved a little bit more. It makes me want to give them some words of encouragement that could steer them towards the right paths. Ah, how impossible it seems.
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Monday, May 01, 2006Class outing today was fun. It was so good to see everyone. Kester's singing voice was something different (which means good :)) Didn't hear Joel sings though. Didn't get to talk to Abner either. Had fun in the arcade. Got to see Koon Yen after 10 or was it 11 months? Thanks to Koon Yen and Kester for the treat in KTV and pool respectively. So generous of them hehe. And Thank you Kester to sending me to the bus stop with umbrella. Hope to gather with everyone again soon.
Alright. I have to think about the 6 week summer campus in Korea that I have applied for now. I'm still not very sure if the trip will be worth it. It will cost about 3 to 4K. Here's the details:
.duration, about 6 weeks starting June 25 till August 4,
.place, Korea University in Seoul,
.module I'll take, one module, Psychology, lesson is conducted in English by a visiting Prof from Yale, exam around the 5th or 6th week,
.gain, experience, probably the only overseas exchange chance I have, get to know people from all over since it's an International summer campus open to all, get to visit Korea, it's like part holiday part studying,
.loss, money (it's 3 to 4 thousand dollars), it's summer, it'll be hot and also heavy rain, the living expenses is higher than Singapore, I don't understand the language, and I have no friends going with me.
Yup, think that's basically all. May I have everyone who happen to pass by vote for it please? Shout Korea! in the tag board if you think I should go just for the experience and shout No K! otherwise. Haha, lame.. just give me your opinion lah. Thank you.
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