Saturday, February 12, 2005
Happy V day!! :D

Thank you dear.. hehe..

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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
It's the 30th of the last lunar month of the Monkey year. Busy busy preparing for reunion dinner. Not exactly a reunion dinner this time cos.. there are only us. And almost every night the whole family have dinner together. Hehe.. Never mind, it's the atmosphere that's different. Not planning to sleep tonight (superstition #1: the later you sleep on chinese new year's eve, the longer are your parents' lives). So what will I do? Catch up with school work!! Haha.. kidding lah, maybe I'll do them tomorrow. :)

Also, after dinner tonight the house must be mopped and cleaned. Because tomorrow we cannot sweep the floor for one whole day (superstition #2: on first day of CNY, the God of Fortune will send his blessings to every household, so if we sweep the floor or use the broom at all we might accidentally sweep the fortune away).

I do enjoy reunion dinner especially my mum's cooking. But my mum cannot do it all alone. And my sister and I cannot cook. Poor mum. Every year at this time my mum would feel very tired and every year we promise to eat out at restaurant for reunion dinner. But every year my mum will cook anyway because eating out will cost a lot. Maybe next year we'll really eat out cause my sis and I have a part-time teaching job every now and then and so we can split the cost. Okay, that means I have to save!!

Ah, let's just wait for more angpao money this year. Woo hoo...

Happy New Year.. Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

romanced at 19:01hr

Saturday, February 05, 2005
Random thought:

I am quite a bad daughter. This kind of living has made me take things for granted. And I've forgotten to count my blessings. Sigh, who am I kidding? Even up to this point I'm still blaming anyone - anything, but myself.

Sometimes I wish for many other things. When I already know many people will die to have the life I have right now. Selfish, inconsiderate! ungrateful. That's me.

Occasionally I'll have suicidal thought. Haha.. does that mean I have depression? I've always been the impulsive kind as well. I thought I was wise enough, and smart enough. I thought I know how ending one's life will not solve one's problem. But I acted rashly anyway.

At rare times I'd regret moving here. It doesn't matter how the living condition was back then, at least I'd be contented, not knowing how a better life feels like. But I guess that kind of thinking does not make me very wise huh.

Now I wish I'll learn to be a better person. I'm already so old. If I don't learn now when would I learn I don't know. I'm stubborn and bad-tempered. I don't really like that very much.

romanced at 13:41hr